101 Friends in friendster
Yo, it is a milestone! 101 friends, sounds like 101 Dalmatian.
hahaha … but do I really feel happy about it? i don’t think so, because half
of them I do not know in person, and yes I know the other half in person but I
seldom contact them. So what the heck to have such a list of friends?
Why do I add so many friends? To race with other on number of
friends in my list? To get myself on my friends’ update list always? To create
an image that I am a friendly person? To lie to myself that I am in the center
of attention?
Maybe those are my intentions, but deep down in my heart
there should be a cause of action. I can popup 2 words now, “Bored” and “Loneliness”.
I think there should be more than these 2 words, is it something to do with my
personality and attitude? Please tell me if you have any idea.
Recently I am very free, to the extend that I went for movie
alone, stay awake through out the night for HK dramas, exchange breakfast for
sleeping till noon, read somebody blog and follow their daily post. (you know that
I never wanna do these in the past). Many times I browse through my phonebook, I
can hardly pick a name to call for lunch, dinner or yam cha. Am I isolating
myself?
Even that I am getting closer to you-know-who GOD, I found
myself losing my focus and get myself confused. Sometime I get frustrated +
annoyed when GOD talks to me, it seems a lost to me because GOD don’t simply
grant wisdom to others. But I don’t care because I am not you-know-who GOD’s
follower!
Still GOD is my good company la … hehehehe
